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I just feel like writing now. I don't know what and I don't know why. I just so desperately don't want to write it because writing it makes it a reality which is crap because written or not it's a reality. But its not like its bad I've just been here so many times before and it's NEVER worked. So I want it to be different. But it's not different. This time I'm gonna shut up about it. I can't do this again. But it's not like I'm even DOING ANYTHING. But I'm doing everything the same! I just. . . . .God, I need help. But is it wrong if I don't want the same "help" I've gotten before? Is it wrong if I want this one to

I just can't think like this anymore!