Summer Summer

It's a song by The Almost and I honestly just put that in the title and then I decided to look up the lyrics and I came across something I found rather interesting.

Empty streets, empty me
Just call me vagabond
Wandering in the sun
This is getting sort of old
Wandering aimlessly
Is it empty streets or empty me?

Here's the thing about this summer. Actually about here on out. I want things to be different. I caught myself doing something today. I've been finding someone I work with kind of attractive. He like country music. I hate it, but I thought about starting to listen to it just so I'd have something to talk to him about. And that's not okay. I don't need to start changing myself for people. I hate that about other people but I've realized that I do it far too often. So I began to wonder, have I ever done anything for me? Anything because I wanted to? Anything because it was my idea? I know I have, don't get me wrong, but there are just so many parts of my daily life that have become so mundane and I think to myself "Why do I do these things?" and I far too often catch myself saying "Because So-and-So. . ." and that's not okay with me. I started a journey to find myself. But how can I find myself when so much of my life is defined by other people? Where are the projects I did for me? Who are the artists I listened to for me? Where are the clothes that I wear for me? What is the hairstyle for me? Is it okay for me to base these things off of the opinion of everyone else so much so that I do it FOR them? Do I listen to this artist because HE likes it or do I keep my hair long because THEY like it?

Is it an empty campus? Or is it an empty me? I think it's neither but both at the same time.