Decisions. Decisions.

I'm a people pleaser. Did you know this about me?

I'm a HUGE people pleaser. It shows up in almost everything I do. What I read, what I wear.

Don't get me wrong. I do this because it does please me. I want to do these things. Making other people happy make me happy. Simple as that.

Except that now I'm forced to make a decision based on ME. And only ME.

I cannot make this decision based on what other people want me to do. I need to base this decision on what I need to do. On what is best for me.

Do I go home? Or do I stay here?

I've been struggling with this because it's not like I have the normal arguments. I have someplace to live here. And getting a job won't be that difficult either.

I can't make this decision based on what my family wants me to do. I need to make this decision based on me. Part of me feels like that is selfish, but after Christmas Break. . .I think that's okay.

A wise person has just recently told me that decisions like this are Opportunities not Burdens.

I can do God's will in whatever I choose.

I guess at this point it's about actually making a definite decision. Which is probably the hardest place to be right now because I'm feeling [mostly] at peace about both outcomes.