Change?

I want to be able to miss him. I want to post on his wall and say "I miss you, friend." I want to text him and say "When are you gonna visit me?" I want him to respond by telling me how much he misses me and telling me he's going to visit me soon. But I know that none of that is ever going to happen. Honestly, I'm not even sure that I really want that anymore. I mean after everything that happened between us. . .God I just wish that nothing had changed. I wish that most of all. And that is the one thing that will always happen. Things will always change.